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nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Mon, 29 Apr 2013 18:11:31 -0700

you are evidence around me
elegance resounding
by grace I am restored
but inside I don't feel right
waiting for the warm spring
winter wears me down
falling to the ground
I can't help but sing

For a long time I have struggled with depression and self-loathing. This sprung from a series of events in my early adolescence that I often feel it's difficult to escape from. As much hate and sorrow I have felt for the things that have happened in my life, I have become thankful because beauty has risen from ashes, and my God has given me hope in my darkest moments. I have found photography, and a community here who pushes me and inspires me to overcome and to better my skill and myself. To some it seems so simple, but to those who have experienced it... we see there is something so unspeakable and magical about the act of expression.

Somehow all of this seems appropriate for this image. I have been doing a personal journey of overcoming, since a couple months ago when I felt my heart and soul had been ripped out by someone I loved, and thought loved me. I have been taking little steps to let go, this image is sorta one of those. I have gotten a little too accustomed to keeping to myself these days, so here are my guts, in case you feel the need to pray for me or relate to me in some way. That's what testimonies are for right? I hope a little piece of my heart is able to inspire you. Also I hope you know, my friends, I love you. Thank you for the life you've helped me see.

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Mon, 22 Apr 2013 20:06:29 -0700

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if i had only felt the warmth within your touch
i would have known what i was waiting for
what i am waiting for

experimentation.

Set Apart This Dream

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Wed, 17 Apr 2013 21:08:00 -0700

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Heavy Things

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Sun, 07 Apr 2013 22:09:09 -0700

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sometimes i miss you.
and i stop.
and i get better.

In a Masquerade

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Sun, 07 Apr 2013 21:40:07 -0700

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We only shine when we allow our true selves to be free.

My model is Jacob, he recently made an account here! You should go add him as a contact. :)

Same Soul III

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Mon, 25 Feb 2013 22:11:03 -0800

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i belong to you
and you belong to me
we can make it through

just give me a reason

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Tue, 12 Feb 2013 22:00:01 -0800

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it's in the stars
it's been written in the scars of our hearts
i'm not broken just bent
i will learn to love again

lyrics

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but for now i am broken. but for now i need to know it's okay.

hoax

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Tue, 12 Feb 2013 00:19:43 -0800

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*writings from long ago that resonate with me tonight.

unimaginable
it would seem
to wake up and see that this lifestyle
this thing called love
is a sick hoax
at some point one must face their deepest fear and admit it
i have reached that point
i think it's an awakening you cannot take back
you must open your eyes
with the full realization that one day you may wish you would fall back asleep
at some point one must attempt to understand the impossible
walking away without moving a single muscle
i still do not know why love is so cruel
or why abuse disguises itself as love
nor do i understand why helplessness poses as hope
i don't se how darkness can pretend to be light
but just because i do not understand
does not mean i don't feel it
and hurt
and just because i always seem to fail does not give me reason
enough to quit.

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Fri, 25 Jan 2013 12:30:59 -0800

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This image is part of a collaboration with my wonderful friend Olivia Paige Photography <3
John Green:
“I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane.”

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Wed, 23 Jan 2013 10:31:23 -0800

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keep pieces of the sun for when it's cold in december.

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Wed, 23 Jan 2013 10:30:53 -0800

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nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Wed, 23 Jan 2013 10:30:23 -0800

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She is like the wind, open and free. If i cage the wind, will it die?

a little peace.

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Sat, 12 Jan 2013 19:40:30 -0800

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grandfather, gentle soul, you'll fly
over your life once more before you die
since our grandma passed away
you waited for forever and a day
just to die
someday soon
you will die
she was the only woman you ever loved

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Thu, 03 Jan 2013 10:45:28 -0800

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reach deep inside
untangle your roots
it's not so bad to make things right

experiement.

i want to say thank you for everyone's reaction to my last photo! it was a big stretch for me to post that (especially on facebook, because people there are much less accepting then you wonderful peoples) and it was so encouraging for me to check the image on flickr and find so much support and love. i often neglect to say thank you for every comment and favorite but please know i appreciate every single one of them and you.
xx

fear less

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Tue, 01 Jan 2013 22:09:27 -0800

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In response to our global depression of not being able to attend the lafg2013, some of my friends decided to create a collaboration group to keep each other inspired. Our first subject was our greatest fear.

I went out this day with an image in my mind of a dark alley and ghosty things imagining a perfect representation of my fears of imposing forces, but then started to think truly and honestly what my greatest fear is. This is a new year after all... and my resolution is to be fearless.

My greatest fear, I found, is myself. All my life I've let myself become a victim by failing to see the strength inside of me. I've let worries dictate my actions and I've missed incredible opportunities because of that. I've let people I love slip through my fingers because of my fear. I've let others hurt me because I was afraid to know my worth. I've hurt myself because I was afraid to see myself. I've lived in the past far too much in my short life.

I'm 16 years old and tired of carrying the heavy heart of someone who has seen far too much. I'm ready to breathe and run and be simply alive. Soon I will be ready for so much more. This year I will take hold of strength, I will challenge my consciousness and change my existence.
I will spread my wings, I will be fearless.

Thank you to my family, my friends, and everyone who supports me for being a part of my journey. It is an honor to take steps with you right behind me.

when hearts ignite

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Wed, 26 Dec 2012 21:37:17 -0800

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nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Fri, 14 Dec 2012 14:03:37 -0800

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nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Fri, 14 Dec 2012 14:03:36 -0800

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nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Fri, 14 Dec 2012 14:03:36 -0800

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Belief.

nobody@flickr.com (from the seed) — Thu, 13 Dec 2012 19:21:02 -0800

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