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hi guys :D

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Sun, 25 Sep 2011 18:57:01 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

Winners have been announced! thanks to everyone who entered!

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Wed, 31 Aug 2011 19:15:42 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

(Did I just really type that? Did that really just happen?)

With dedication comes patience, with patience comes growth.

That is what my 365 has brought me: dedication, patience and growth. In three hundred and sixty five days, I have learned how to extend and retract my tripod in lightning speed and use a remote. (Haha, just kidding, I learned so much more than just that, DON’T WORRY.) This year, I learned what dedication truly feels like, what pride in one self means, and I (hopefully!!) learned how to take better photographs.

The reason why this project means so much to me is because I let it become something personal and meaningful to me. I documented all my emotions, days and thoughts in photographs. These photographs are not just frozen times in my life, but memories to me. The changes that I have gone through this year are all captured in these pictures. The relationships I have lost and made with people… each chapter closing and opening can be found in these very photos. This project has allowed people of acquaintance to accept me as someone more than a giggling, blubbering lunatic (or not, right, it’s up to you).

That being said… “people of acquaintance”: Thank you for being here for me. Thank you to everyone who has complimented my work in likes (Facebook), favourites (Flickr) and comments. Thank you to those who have inspired me, encouraged me (especially when I felt like giving up), and given me support. I would not have made it this far without your support- I would have quit. Thank you to those who have loyally followed me on this journey from day one, your sweetness cannot be thanked enough for. And THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO TOLD ME THAT THEY WERE EXPECTING SOME MIND BLOWING LAST DAY PHOTO!! YOU GUYS GAVE ME SO MUCH PRESSURE!! :P (So, I guess I gotta apologize if this photo didn’t meet your standards!! Sorry, guys!!)

I think I got a lot of the serious stuff out of the way… Let’s talk about all stupid behaviour that I have conducted in this project. I cannot count the times that I forgot my memory card in my laptop and went straight out with my memory card- less camera!! Oh man! Or those times that my battery decided to die on me but I was too lazy to charge my spare the night before, so I had no camera at all! Ugh! And all those times that I was shooting in a public area like a park or some open road where cars just kept passing by! ALL THOSE AWKWARD GLANCES AND STARES!! Hahah, today, I was shooting in front of a full tennis court right. I was right in plain view of the tennis players and it was really awkward, but I just kept thinking, “SCREW IT. LAST DAY. I’LL DO WHAT I WANT AND THIS WILL NEVER HAVE TO HAPPEN AGAIN!” And all those times where I had to walk to my location! UGH! My legs are so sore from all the walking that I did today! I went out from 2 PM to 6 PM trying to shoot something decent, but I came home very unsatisfied. So I went at 7:40 PM and came back at 8:20 with my final photo.

So this is what I’ve accomplished in a year. The amount of improvement… I am actually not sure if I got any better or if it was the change of my lens that has really helped haha.

This year has been tedious and hard; with the combination of school, my social life (WAIT WHAT SOCIAL LIFE HAHA) and a huge dedication, I can finally relax! (Ohkay just for a week and then school starts again.) There is no doubt that I am incredibly proud of myself, but this pride would not exist without all of your help.

Lastly, this is certainly not good bye. I will not disappear off the face of this earth. I am planning to start another photography project, perhaps another 365 or maybe a 52 weeks project or just a one month project. I am undecided in that area, but what I have decided is that I am going to do a print giveaway!
I’m not sure if I want to do the print for my outtakes as well, so leave your opinion in the comments below and… I guess I’m finally done.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Is it silly that I feel tears in the corners of my eyes?

362||365 + a bunch of photos in the comments

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Mon, 29 Aug 2011 18:23:59 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

My friend, Jennifer, took this photo.

I went downtown yesterday with a bunch of friends.
It was an amazing day and night.
My legs just like they're going to fall off.

Only two more days left of my 365.
What do I do. What do I do??

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Fri, 26 Aug 2011 17:56:31 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

360||365
friday, august 26

a wish for change

i don't know what i'm doing and i'm going all the wrong ways. i just wish that everything turns out alright in the end.
because the end is making me want to cry.
i can't think of anything, my inspiration has abandoned me, and i'm so frustrated.
i just don't want to disappoint anyone.

this project isn't for me anymore, it's for you guys.
you who has supported me everyday for an entire freaking year, who stuck by me in my most horridly embarrassing and bad days, and you who gave me encouragement when i most needed it.
i thought it was for me- i thought that the only person's disappointment that i cared about was mine, but it isn't.
it's ours.

five days left. what's happening.

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Thu, 25 Aug 2011 17:04:25 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

thanks to andy for being my human tripod in this photo!!
(the plan was to go out, get ballons, come home, grab tripod and go shooting. but we ended up shooting at a church with no balloons or tripod, so i made andy hold the camera for me hoohoohoo)

run down of the day:
- tiffani's house from 11:30 to three
- baked lemon cupcakes without icing oops D: !
- went to hillary's house
- went to explore the abandoned house it was really dark and creepy, never again!!
- went to dollarstore on elgin mills (for the balloons!!), bus took us a bit past elgin to crosby, walked back to elgin, discovered store was shut down, asked lady for nearest store that blows helium balloons up, remembered there was one down back at crosby, walked back to crosby, couldn't find the store (it was all the day down yonge and weldrick!!), went into the catholic church
- we were the only ones in there although a man let us in (i think he was the priest or something)
- hillary and i swore in it though (i was way worse LOL)
- uhm, we partied hard and had to try to remain silent but when we were walking it was very creaky so it was hard as hell D:
- we bussed back and walked back to hillary's while making cars honk (yo, no one knows what that honking action means. -__- WE GOT THIS ONE TRUCK AHAHAHA WE WERE LIKE "HONK!!" and the driver pointed to the man on the bike in front of him and made the motion of the biker flipping over on his bike LOOOOOOOOOOL but he honked after the biker went in front of him)
- then we sat around and just talked waiting for my mom to pick me up

I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WITH BALLOONS. I WILL DO SOMETHING WITH BALLOONS SOON!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARUGH.
I really think I'll do something with balloons tomorrow!! :DDD

anyways...
idk, i really hope my last few photographs are proving something. |:

it still feels weird to look at myself in the mirror without glasses. sometimes, i try to push my glasses up my nose and realize that i don't have any. haha, i've had glasses since third grade. :P

358||365 + a load in comments

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 15:07:25 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

uhm i got really dirty and wet from this.
oh, BEST PART IS! I took a shower RIGHT BEFORE this shoot (:
(I did not expect to spend an hour derping around on the wet ground in a puddle ohkay)

i have a bunch of outtakes
fun
:D

one week left.
just one.

+5 mosquito bites funfunfun!
three joggers passed as i was shooting... uhm.

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Mon, 22 Aug 2011 23:50:25 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

just something a bit simple.

my phone's screen is black. i can feel it vibrate when it turns on and the lights for the buttons come on but the stupid screen... so i went to my boyfriend's house and stole his old phone. haha :D
i stayed for dinner as well. his sister had four of her friends over so it was less awks. his grandma's quite awesome LOL :D

i;m getting contacts tomorrow.

guys, what's your opinion on the focus? should it be on me or the reflection in the mirror? i can't decide. :P

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Sun, 21 Aug 2011 19:39:13 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

home.

353||365 + a long description + a ton of photos in comments!!

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 21:18:14 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

Before you do anything, read anything, or even breathe anything... WATCH THIS VIDEO. It's only 17 seconds and it made me giggle like hell!

yes, we are obviously cool enough to sit in the middle of the parking lot and take photos like we don't know we're being photographed. yes.

hello, peeps. today was a crazy adventure- no doubt one of the greatest days of my summer. (:
run down of zah day:
- woke up at 11 (freaked out, because karen and shannon were supposed to come at 11:30)
- cindy arrived at 11:40
- shannon and karen arrived at 11:50
- partied hard (aka sat around in my room -KAREN LIKES IT WOO!!-, talked, made instant noodles, sat in the kitchen and took photos haha, and just talked while i washed all the damn dishes LOL)
- left the house to empire theater at 2:10
- met up with bradley around 2:20
- went inside and had too much fun with the mini arcade there (shannon got one keychain, cindy got two, and i got a plushie!!.. and then broke the machine... anyways.)
- watched 'Final Destination 5'. there were two other people in the theater, and shannon and karen and me kept screaming because it was so freaking bloody and creepy. and i ate two bags of popcorn. yes, two bags and the cup of orange crush. LOL I WAS MUNCHING IN FRONT OF CINDY'S FACE THE ENTIRE TIME [she sat next to me] and she kept telling me "STOP EATING!!!"
- BRADLEY WAS COVERING HIS FACE THE ENTIRE MOVIE OH MAN AND I KEPT CALLING HIS NAME AND HE WAS LIKE "SOMEONE WAS CALLING MY NAME THE ENTIRE TIME, IT SCARED ME MORE THAN THE MOVIE!!"
- ohkay, when it was over, the man (who went with his son) left and looked at us and started smiling because we were SO FREAKING LOUD LOLOOOL LOL I UNLEASHED THIS FURIOUS SNEEZE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SILENCE LOL LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
- so the next movie started at 5:40 (Rise of the Planets of the Apes).
- we chilled outside (took my 365) and shannon and cindy left (haha shannon had piano lessons)
- then we went back inside and talked about deep stuff over skittles haha and took cool photos and met bradley's dad (the one who let us in for free)
- then we went to watch the apes. it was a pretty decent movie. karen and i were crying LOL it was so sad but i didn't really like the ending ):
- ohkay so after the movie which ended around 7:20, we went to eat at william's cafe.
- i had a lasagna and bradley ordered TWO desserts LOL
- we ate yumyum and then we left back to the theater to be picked up, waited like 30 mins and then we dropped bradley and karen off :)

wow that was a huge day.
it was awesome crazy awesome. :)
two free movies with two free bags of popcorn.
what more could i ask for?

if you read all of that... wow.
this weekend... ugh. i don't know what's going to happen to my photos... i'm going to try my best to not make them webcam photos because i'm nearing the end and i really don't want to do that. |:
i'm hoping i'll get something good...

anyways!!
who finished reading all of this??? wow.

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 16:19:03 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 19:05:42 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

15 more days. I'm ready.
(LOL JUST KIDDING I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK I'M DOING)

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Sat, 13 Aug 2011 20:09:56 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

exhale

I'm back to uploading regularly.
I'll either make a new stream or delete everything here and start anew.

I have cramps and a headache right now.
Not feeling good. D:

when you're invisible, you're more free

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Fri, 12 Aug 2011 18:53:53 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

pour a little salt, we were never here
Skinny Love- Bon Iver

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Thu, 11 Aug 2011 10:25:58 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

Inspired by the talented Lina.

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 16:12:30 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

I had a really really bad morning.
Then I had an awesome afternoon.
&Now I'm in an awful mood again.

This is so fucking stupid.
I wanted today to be amazing.

Queen's Lace

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Fri, 29 Jul 2011 19:15:26 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdhmrV31K-Q&feature=channel_v...

^ I went out and made a film with the help of Gordon Y. and Patricia N. today.
It was amazing.
Please please please do watch it.

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Mon, 25 Jul 2011 21:20:58 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

I got shoes with feathers on them.
I am in love.

Interview went kind of badly.
Ugh.

Jumping for joy LOL

nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Sat, 23 Jul 2011 15:32:48 -0700

charmfully posted a video:

so uh, these are just some outtakes from yesterday (day 325)
when i got called for a job interview (in desperate need of some money here) and i was like: HAHAHAHAH

i answered the phone in a groggy voice at 2 pm because i had math tutor at 10 and then i went back to sleep at 11:30 LOL

but yeah
just sharing some of my excitement with you guys

i am fully aware i look like an idiot ;P
THIS ISN'T HOW I DANCE. THIS IS HOW I CELEBRATE MY HAPPINESS. DON'T. JUDGE.
Thanks :D

I'll probably delete this later today LOL

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Sat, 23 Jul 2011 10:21:29 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

This summer is for art, adventure and love.

I'm so sorry I've been MIA.
I've been silently stalking streams, just never commenting!

Happy summer, y'all. (:

I'll catch up uploading my 365 in the comments or something like that. :D

So the biggest update I've got for you is that
I broke my tripod and 50mm lens.
The next day, my mother bought me a new tripod and lens.
I promised to pay her back, so I applied for a job.
They called me back yesterday; I have an interview on Monday.

PLEASE GUYS, WISH ME LUCK. (And give me some tips while you're at it! :P)
I sincerely hope to pay my mom back.

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nobody@flickr.com (charmfully) — Sat, 23 Jul 2011 10:19:05 -0700

charmfully posted a photo:

sunday, june 26

-huge ramble about stupid stuff that I should have saved for tomorrow but don't want to-

I only have 66 more days of this journey.
Within 299 days, I have watched myself evolve from some stupid noob who knew a pinch's worth of knowledge on photography to... (still a noob) someone who has gained so much more.
I've used photography as an excuse to keep up with friends, photography as a conversation starter- photography as my getaway.

Photography has proved again and again to be my happy place. I know how weird it sounds, "LOL PHOTOGRAPHY IS LIKE WEED TO ME. I LOL GET LOL HIGH OFF OF PHOTOGRAPHY LOLLLOLOOLOL" but that's not exactly the case. It's just that I find myself eighty five percent of the time with a huge smile on my face when I'm taking my pictures. To walk around with my camera strapped across my neck, the prime lens weighing in the palm of my hand for extra support and my tripod in my summer bag feels so RIGHT.
It's almost like holding a lover's hand... it just feels right.
Did I just compare holding my camera to holding a lover's hand.
Ohkay ohkay then...

Anyways, one time, my History teacher was talking to a student about how she had accomplished a load of important and epic stuff when she was only sixteen years old. And she asked the student, "so, why aren't you doing anything if you can?"
It made me think, "well, I sort of am doing something. This 365 takes some steady dedication, right."
I guess it just means that I hold my 365 on pedestal, I find so much pride in being able to keep up with it like this.
With my 365, although it's just a hobby, it's the beginning of something.

Hell, it's such a big thing, it's like a determinant for my fate, and this is where my photo comes in.
I believe in fate. I believe in fate because YOU make your own fate.
One boy (who probably won't even read this LOL), made me stop wishing at 11:11.
He told me "you don't wish for things to happen, you make things happen."
&in my photo.. well... I guess I'm making things happen.

I guess what I'm REALLY getting at, is that I love photography. (People should just skip to this paragraph LOL)
But that isn't enough. I want to MASTER it.
And by doing a 365, I'm taking stepping stones to mastery.
Small, but surely, progress is being made.
&By doing a 365, I guess, here I am, controlling my fate.

:)