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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Wed, 08 May 2013 02:25:12 -0700

Self portraits are hard sometimes. You learn what looks good through trial and error, lots of getting up and going back and forth and tweaking. Sometimes a lot of frustration. This time, my camera died after getting ten shots. It's my own fault for not charging it before heading to such a beautiful place as this, but this is life

I got these photos and they were all so horribly over exposed it broke my heart. I recovered this one the best that I could, but I'm afraid that the ghost of it is still there.

I need to get out and shoot more I think
It always feels so good when I do.

I have a new website!
I also got a job! Hip hip hooray!

website
tumblr

nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Mon, 29 Apr 2013 23:47:39 -0700

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I went out to my backyard this afternoon and enjoyed the wind and the sun and the flowers that have come out.

I've decided to put my 365 on hold for many reasons... It was going pretty well while I was at school because I had a routine established, but now I'm home and I have job interviews and impromptu meetings and I get up at different times and I thought the project was going to be more successful, but being home hasn't been good for the project like I was expecting it to be. Such is life.

I don't like to have deadlines when I don't have to. I got about a hundred days in and for that I am happy. Even in that short period of time, I feel like my work improved quite a bit. I feel more creative and I feel more enthusiastic. Having the daily deadline was good for me at first, but after awhile I began to resent it. I was turning out crap and it hurt to see my stream representing me in a negative way.

I'll be able to take more time now to think about what I do. That will be good.

To see more photos and other goodies, follow me on Tumblr.

nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Mon, 29 Apr 2013 23:47:39 -0700

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Tue, 23 Apr 2013 23:31:37 -0700

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Tue, 23 Apr 2013 23:31:37 -0700

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Wed, 17 Apr 2013 23:52:24 -0700

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Ahhh I don't know what I'm doing

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Sun, 14 Apr 2013 02:22:35 -0700

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I'm so behind on this project, but I realized that it's mine and I can do what I want with it, like taking week-long breaks when I need to. And this is what happened

I packed up my little life in Idaho and I've moved back to Washington for good. I don't think I'll ever regret that decision. Idaho has it's moments, but sadly few and far between. I'm so very glad to be back here. Washington has so many things to offer.

I couldn't be happier to be back with my love and being able to see him daily. I'm so very proud of us for working a majority of our relationship thus far long distance and I know that it's made us stronger together and individually... I hope never to leave him again

Gracie and I made a long drive back to Washington. She drove all night and we played twenty questions in order to stay awake. That will be something I'll remember. We pulled into my neighborhood early in the morning, around five. The sun was beginning to rise and all of the sweet trees lining the street were in bloom. The air was crisp and chilly but good and it smelled of greenery and moisture. The sky was growing lighter ever so slowly. There is nothing quite like the blue hue of the sky as the sun is rising.There was a single bird that was singing in the distance. It was like a dream. The stark difference between Idaho and Washington was almost humorous.

I guess you could say I'm partial.

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Thu, 04 Apr 2013 19:32:55 -0700

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The most human color

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Tue, 02 Apr 2013 20:26:15 -0700

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My sweet little shoes.

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Wed, 27 Mar 2013 22:23:36 -0700

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The clouds were so wonderful today.

Usually the clouds around here wispy and thin to non-existent, so it was really special today
Reminded me of home.

I also want to do more studies. Photograph something many times and see what I discover

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Mon, 25 Mar 2013 22:29:09 -0700

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I love grocery shopping.

I'm going to Utah this weekend with my roommates for the Holi festival. Should be pretty sweet.

Just a couple more weeks... Going to stick it out!

Truth 76/365

nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Wed, 20 Mar 2013 22:53:07 -0700

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I love the juxtaposition of these two

One is very clear, factual, there

The other is soft, tender, letting humanity out

This set was inspired by a few talks that I've shared recently with my good friend, Kyle.

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Wed, 20 Mar 2013 22:53:06 -0700

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Some thoughts:

-I'm doing not doing very well uploading these on time (explanation to follow)
-I have been stressed out and busy and stressed out (explanation)
-I can't wait to leave Idaho; It will feel so good to be inspired again
-It is so rewarding to be an observer
-Three weeks and I'll be done with my first year of college
-I really hope to get into film again, it will be easier when I have a job and money to process it
-Warm water

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Mon, 18 Mar 2013 19:19:16 -0700

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Mon, 18 Mar 2013 19:05:17 -0700

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Fri, 15 Mar 2013 19:54:52 -0700

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Thu, 14 Mar 2013 23:45:39 -0700

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An idea that I had tonight

I might revisit

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Wed, 13 Mar 2013 00:11:52 -0700

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Hehe. Yeah

I took this thinking that it would be all artsy and conceptual, but it just ended up being humorous

I am exhausted. It will take days to recover from this drive.

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nobody@flickr.com (olivia bidleman) — Mon, 11 Mar 2013 13:40:12 -0700

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This weekend was so great. So many things have happened in the last 72 hours that I have a hard time conceiving that I'm sitting in class right now.

Gracie and I drove from Idaho to Washington on Friday. Long drive. We stopped in Spokane where Spencer picked us up and drove us the rest of the way (I love him). It is always so invigorating to see him. That boy is the love of my life. We ended up getting home in the early hours of the morning, and I woke up the next day in my own bed. So good. Gracie and I spent the afternoon with Katherine and we all went to lunch and enjoyed the beautiful scenery of Washington. Everything there is beautiful

That night we went to the spring musical at our old high school. It was bittersweet to be in the audience rather than on the stage with all of our friends, but it was still lovely. Spencer's little brother starred as Oliver. I loved watching my friends. It was entertaining and I felt proud of them. Spencer and I went for dinner and a drive afterwards

I cherish the time I have with him more than anything else

The next morning I went to Charlie's for breakfast with my family. We've been going to this restaurant for hot cakes and hash browns since we were young kids. It was so nostalgic. I was anticipating that it would just be myself, my parents, and my grandparents that would be there, but my aunt Laura and my cousin Ellie and my sister Hannah all were there. No one was expecting that we would all be there and it was so sweet and impromptu. They cooked me a grilled cheese sandwich as they always used to when I would come to Charlie's for breakfast when I was a little kid.

I said goodbye and headed home to go to church before Gracie and I needed to head back. It was a short trip. Spencer wasn't feeling well so I stayed with him instead. We went on a drive to Lake Holm, a small little lake that is a short drive away from where we are. We went to the boat launch where the water is right there. We opened the back door of the truck and just sat in the trunk with a blanket and a couple of pillows and looked out at the water. It was slowly raining and you could hear the little drops tapping the ceiling when we were quiet. Those quiet moments... Bliss.

I said goodbye to Spencer with a kiss and a "see you soon" (and an "I love you")

I went home to my mama and she taught me how to make fresh salsa from tomatoes and jalapeños. She showed me her new 35mm lens and we took photos of Yoshi. My mom is one of my favorite people. She bought me bottles of my favorite water (Sobe Life Water-Fuji Apple Pear yesss) and a bunch of road trip snacks and groceries. She is one of the most thoughtful people I know

And then Gracie and I left. We slept in Boise and made the rest of our way back to Rexburg this morning. And now I'm in class. Learning about the Philosopher's Stone.

It's funny when you juxtapose things like this... A little more than 24 hours ago, I was with the most significant person in my life. Everything else seemed to dull in comparison.

And now I'm learning about a fictional rock.