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#308

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 04:51:05 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

june 2007:
hey, after the censorship i pretty much left flickr and finished my 365 at ipernity.
i am now doing daily videos of that kind. one minute each day :)
back around here to keep up with friends though.

my pro account expired, so i am not uploading any new pictures here at he moment.
not planning to pay yahoo.

#307: Authenticity

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Fri, 15 Jun 2007 04:57:45 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

Only a few people you meet in life are real. Set an example.

#306: Why Pissed?

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 03:56:50 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

Why am i pissed about flickrs censorship at all?
Several people keep asking me that and if flickr itself is to blame or was being forced to do that move, perhaps because of german laws or something. Well, first of all: until now, no one could tell me which german law enforces flickr to close the door to us germans. If anyone has an answer please let me know. I am still looking for the "why"?

Stewards attempt to find an explanation is hilarious to me. What has the language feature (with bad translation) to do with the censorship. And btw. how many german flickr-users have switched to german language here so far? None? One? Oh ok,... And how many are glad about your censorship move? None? One?... Oh i see. Fine.

Personally.
Flickr has become a big part if my life. Most of you know how many hours i spent here (with some few time off) throughout the last months, years. A lot of you see my face here everyday because i am a member of 365 (a self-portrait every day for a year). Some of you know why i need this and why i am doing so many self-portraits, comments, why i am so open and explicit concerning personal things. None of you can actually see how sad and mad i am since yesterday. I feel like i have been cheated, betrayed by a good friend. ( Is flickr female btw? Ok sorry for that...;) )

Remember this? The "flickr is a relief"-process Chart.
This was an attempt to express what flickr means to me, my life, my brain, my heart. Not a site where i can upload pictures of my surroundings to, my family, my children and friends, myself, designs. Not a community of and for photographers and those that like fotos.
Not a possibility to backup my digital mess. Not a photoblog i share my emotions with others in, helping eachother to fight extreme depressions and even laugh together a lot. Not an example for nice and easy web2.0 usability and simplicity.
No, all of the above in one,... and more. A friend, partner, companion, therapist, brother (or sister)...

THIS has a psychological and therapeutical meaning to me. Is flickr responsible for the emotions they evoke when they do such things? Do they even think about this before they act? I am not sure myself. Don't want them to blame for that but...

What i think flickr MUST have done before this move!
I cannot and will not believe that flickr doesn't know about it's german community at all, there must be millions of users, important users. Important for flickr and their image as well. Check what happened yesterday here in germany and the whole world within minutes. I don't understand why flickr did NOT inform the germans about what's happening BEFORE we were confronted with these news. I think flickr MUST have emailed us about how sorry they are they have to change this and that and , "well... here's your amend: A two-year pro-account for free for all of you germans (and the others involved for sure) . We are sorry but this is necessary because... we hope you understand, we will do our best to... blabla". NOTHING, not even now! Only weak statements of a few, hidden in group-threads. See?

So why not just quit and use another service
See above. None of the alternative sites can gimme all of that. Not at the moment.

Sascha Assbach,
German, 33, still flickr user, feeling un-loved by you!

I hate flickr for pissin down my back

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 11:47:26 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

this is why.

I am sorry i have to curse, but this shit is making me so friggin angry, you just don't believe. Some of you know how much time i spent here over the last months, a large amount of my life was spent here with all my hear spread open right before your fuckin gates flickr people! you know what this fuckin site means to me, no, i have to correct, not the site, you , the people. I was always honest and straightforward concerning my emotions. Now this is it today. I hate this! I hate it. And this time i mean hatred.

You're fuckin' the wrong people, you know that?
You keep tellin' us "flickr loves you" , publish an amateur translation of this service in german and other languages and the next day you stand there and shovel shit up our backs, yeah right, keep pumping you suckas.

I guess having todays toptag "thinkflickrthink", some of us in explore, digg is coming, and a lot of bloggers keep spreading what's going on here, official news-sites also.
This all shows the relevance and importance, your so-called interestingness.

I am not sure how long it will take me to calm down, but i am thinking about quitting if this will stay as is. I know you don't care cause "you love me" but hey, know what? right now flickr , WE don't love you no more! DIG THAT .....

I'm fuckin PISSED.

#305: It's not how bright you sound. It's how bright you shine from inside

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 04:43:47 -0700

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#295: Crossing me out of your life

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Mon, 04 Jun 2007 12:14:52 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

Me out of yours?
You out of mine?
Me out of mine?
Will we ever know?
And would it make a difference?

If I could would you?
And should I let you?
Would I?

#292: That's where you are...

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Fri, 01 Jun 2007 05:32:01 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

all of you, right there!
Have a wonderful weekend my friends!

#290: Who's drawing my life?

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Wed, 30 May 2007 12:07:21 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

myself? i think so...

some words about this.
i just took an autotimer cellphone shot this morning while i was waiting for the S12 from Spich to Deutz ( MW knows what i mean ;-) ) and since i had to give back the borrowed Canon Powershot i had no better equipment ( and will not have for some time ) for my SP today... when a picture has bad quality i try to use filters and intensify the bad areas, so i played around a little in PS and a mix of comicstyle and the real picture came out. Then i thought about the title and Mavs great shotcame to my mind so i took my cellphone again and shot my hand holding an old pen. this is it. thanks to Mav for that wonderful idea, his is WAAAAY better for sure, ...

#289: Out of the dark

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Tue, 29 May 2007 02:29:30 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

'#289: Out of the dark' On Black

#288: The end of a sacrifice

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Mon, 28 May 2007 07:18:06 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

An advancement of this. (whole set here)

german: Zum Opfer macht man sich selbst.
Wenn der Kampfeswille stark genug ist und das Vetrauen ans Ich
Kann selbst der erbarmungsloseste Peiniger und der größte, längste Schmerz der Seele nichts antun.

Durchhalten! Es gibt Wege. Es gibt sie... und du wirst einen finden.

english: It's YOU that is making yourself a victim.
If your will to fight and trust in self is strong enough
even the most merciless tormentor and the biggest and longest pain can't touch your soul.

Hang in there. There are ways, they are there.... and you will find one.

#287: That dirty mirror

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Sun, 27 May 2007 07:03:17 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

Er scheint zu glänzen, doch nur zum Schein anscheinend.
Denn letztenendes scheint scheinbar alles unrein, un-nah und unwahr.
Wenn du ihn findest blick hinein und mach ihn rein.
Befrei dich vom Schmutz der an dir klebt und lass ihn wieder glänzen.
Denn Wahrheit, Reinheit, Nahsein kennt folglich keine Grenzen.

poor attempt to translate it:
It seems to shine but just for sham it seems
cause in the end everything seems seemingly un-clean, un-close (far away) and un-real.
if you find it, look into and make it clean
Free yourself from the dirt that sticks to you and let it shine again.
Cause truth, clarity and closeness don't know any limits.

that dirty mirror (b)

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Sun, 27 May 2007 07:02:47 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

just kidding ;-) but it reminds me of Teenage Jesus Monday kiss series...

#280: Parallels in life

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Sun, 20 May 2007 05:18:45 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

Things keep repeating themselves in life as it seems.
Even the direction of shadows shows parallels.
They come cutting in like machetes when you least expect it.
Leaving behind bloodred stains.
Stains allover...

i will escape for a while i believe, take care of yourselves!

#272: a break at last...

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Tue, 15 May 2007 02:47:18 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

i was so happy about getting a little break over the weekend that i wanted to fly and jump right into the bed

i was on a trip with 6 other guys/friends to "centerparcs" from fri-sun. a lot of BBQ, drinking, soccer, movies, and NO WOMEN! ;-)

#270: Greetings from within

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Wed, 09 May 2007 12:44:48 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

I awoke with sweaty palms and a dry throat
Took me a minute or two until i dared to open my eyes.
And when the blur and fog subsided i wished i never did.
I was shocked from the echoing deep beeps in my head.
This vibrating hum.
My tongue slid like a lifeless dull stone over my numb lips
and i could sense that foul taste of fear all over.
It was a terrible sight that was showcased here.
Here on the outside.
But nothing, really nothing compared to what i saw inside.
...

#267: Regeneration times Three

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Sun, 06 May 2007 09:14:15 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

it was about f**** time y'll....
i *friggin* deserve a *beepin* rest since months... :-)
and i *beepin* even believe i have the *friggin* right to f**kin curse actually. and i won't apologize this time. take it or leave it.

:D

ENJOY THE SUN! ENJOY YOUR SUNDAY!
the set : www.flickr.com/photos/assbach/sets/72157600183359267/

#262: White pain

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Mon, 30 Apr 2007 07:00:06 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

louder now.
louder than here.

#261: Equal to different

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Sun, 29 Apr 2007 04:21:43 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

- stop dragging.
- there's something beyond periods.
- a wide mouth is not always a sign for smile
- yes my eyes are open
- different than equality
- so fuckin' what?

look deep

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Fri, 27 Apr 2007 03:14:14 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

mr. shtoopid

nobody@flickr.com (assbach) — Fri, 27 Apr 2007 03:12:25 -0700

assbach posted a photo:

that's before this:
www.flickr.com/photos/assbach/474378454