Uploads from aamandasmithh

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sun, 24 Mar 2013 09:35:57 -0700

seems almost like a dream.

things are honestly just getting worse but I'm trying really really hard.

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sun, 10 Mar 2013 09:22:40 -0700

You have disappeared

in the night from which you came

never coming back

Update: Out of residential treatment(have been for over a week) insurance cut out because I miraculously healed in two weeks hallelujah. In kind of a half way house for eating disorders, and am still in intensive day programming, which is nice. I don't really know how I"m feeling.

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Mon, 25 Feb 2013 18:53:29 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

drifting quietly

remembering what could be

and all that was not

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Tue, 19 Feb 2013 07:14:10 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

At times you are far

But I can still hear you sigh

Sweetly in my ear

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:43:57 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

Oh my heart amongst

The watered down words of love

gently guiding me

Starting a haiku series that will probably never end

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:43:56 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

this picture makes me laugh so it belongs here

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:38:47 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

self perception is largely more important than any of you may realize

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:34:28 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

the quiet places in my mind.

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Wed, 06 Feb 2013 00:14:35 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sun, 27 Jan 2013 22:33:10 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

eyes wide open

you don't have any feathers

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Mon, 21 Jan 2013 23:26:59 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

And I know you've been abandoned,

But dont abandon ship on me

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:54:22 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

so I'm selling prints.
(only 8.5x11 :/)

Inquire via flickr mail or email, smithgamanda@yahoo.com

you are the moon

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Fri, 18 Jan 2013 13:23:59 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

the subtle grace of
gravity,
the heavy weight of stone

Listen

These may be getting repetitive but I don't really care. Same shoot, different editing.

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Wed, 16 Jan 2013 15:15:09 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Wed, 16 Jan 2013 07:55:29 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

Very late at night and in the morning light, nobody knows me at all

Meeting with my Individual therapist today to coin me going residential. A lot of you may not know what that means but then again, some of you might.

spread my ashes around the yard

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Tue, 15 Jan 2013 20:12:33 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

I have this dream where I'm not alone anymore, and in that dream I always go to bed content. I constantly wonder where I'd be right now if I grew up learning how to self love from the start. Would other's love me? Would I still be stuck in this place of constantly letting go and denying everyone around me? I'm so used trying to find ways to self sabotage, I've completely forgotten how to allow myself to be happy. I'm so confused about everything right now, and it's unfortunate that I have no one around to tell. I'm sorry. I think this is a good thing. I am about to make a really big decision regarding my health and happiness, and I think this is all the antsy-ness that has inevitably built up. Anyway, hope all is well with all of you. I really miss you.

I'm in a place to do things differently

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Mon, 14 Jan 2013 14:12:12 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

i've gone on dancing while you're all gone

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sun, 13 Jan 2013 23:27:07 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

I'm really close to leaving again and finding an island to recycle my mind.

and the heart, it will not be denied

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sun, 13 Jan 2013 22:14:11 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a photo:

Breaking out through the silence
All the things that we both might say

listen

nobody@flickr.com (aamandasmithh) — Sat, 12 Jan 2013 19:28:01 -0800

aamandasmithh posted a video:

me and my sister hung out today.
It included: Eggs benedict, museums, herb shops and much more.
It has these weird glitches, so I'm sorry