Uploads from Corrie..., tagged portrait

[90/365] - Sober Conversations

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 15:58:47 -0700

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He understood, and he listened.
I told him.
He said he'd knew that something had been wrong that time, but it had never crossed his mind it could be that. He wasn't angry, just sad that it had occurred.

But I am fine now and past it.
I think.
I hope so.

October 15

[71/365] - Breathe... keep breathing, I can't do this... alone.

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 15:50:29 -0700

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Wake... from your sleep
The drying of your tears
Today.. we escape
We escape.

Pack and get dressed
Before your father hears us
Before.. all hell.. breaks loose.

Breathe... keep breathing
Don't lose.. your nerve.
Breathe... keep breathing
I can't do this.. alone.

Sing us a song
A song to keep us warm
There's such a chill
Such a chill.

You can laugh
A spineless laugh
We hope your rules and wisdom choke you
Now we are one
In everlasting peace

We hope that you choke.. that you choke
We hope that you choke.. that you choke
We hope that you choke.. that you choke
Exit Music (For a Film) - Radiohead

Honestly, this is one of the saddest, tragic, and most beautiful songs I've ever listened to. Please Listen here

I was determined to do something decent for today, for probably the first time in weeks. I was also massively inspired by that song.

September 26

We hope, that you choke, that you choke.

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 15:51:05 -0700

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[62/365] - Repeating cycles of life

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 14:20:34 -0700

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Just a quick one I'm afraid, extremely long day with rushing, and panic spread evenly around. Joy.

September 17

[59/365] - I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions. Whatever I see I swallow immediately

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 15:12:29 -0700

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I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
Whatever I see I swallow immediately
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.
I am not cruel, only truthful ‚
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.
Mirror - Sylvia Plath

I've always loved this poem. We had to study it for English last year for our exams. It's from the perspective of the mirror belonging to a woman, and has themes of aging, cruelty, and exactness, and I just love it :)

September 14

[58/365] - Wave Goodbye

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 15:11:19 -0700

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And all we ever were
Just zeros and ones
Zero-Sum - Nine Inch Nails

My concert T-shirt from Nine Inch Nails last July. Possibly the best night of my entire life, I've never felt so alive, and so much a part of something. You could just let go, and flow into the music, it was simply amazing.
On Thursday September 10th, Nine Inch Nails performed their last show. Trent Reznor (the frontman/only member) decided that 20 years was enough. I have only been listening to their music for around a year, there are people who were there from the very start, hell, I wasn't even born then. But for the short time I've loved them, it's been an amazing journey, from the first song I even listened to, to finally seeing them live in concert.
I'm sad that this may be the end, but slightly hopeful, because no one is dying, and there's always hope for a revival?
Who knows :)

September 13

[56/365] - Balancing

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 10:06:41 -0700

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A phrase that gets tossed around alot at school is 'try to Balance your school life, and home life'. I've had alot of trouble with this in the past. The idea that this year could end up the same as all the previous ones, just fills my heart with dread.
I have to now go out now for a 'night out'. It's my friend's last Friday Night, so I have to go out and celebrate with her, even though I feel like I could collapse and go to bed right now.
Balance it all out...

TotW - Tributes to our Heroes, and is dedicated to some of my teachers, who go above and beyond the call of duty, and have helped keep me sane. Thank you :)

September 11

[57/365] - Fall, fight, crash and burn

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 10:07:16 -0700

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I battle my thoughts I find I can't explain
I've travelled so far but somehow feel the same

I'm worn, tired of my mind
I'm worn out, thinking of why
I'm always so unsure
I'm always so unsure
Threads - Portishead

Everything is happening at once, and I really can't take it. I'm stressed out of my brains, and so unbelievably tired.

There are several things that could happen, which are out of my control, one of them would be that I'd be away when this project would finish, which I don't want to happen. I'd also miss this particular event that I've been hoping to go to for over 3 years, and won't get another chance ever again. It's all out of my control, and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do.

There's just too much, I can't think. This is not what was supposed to happen.

September 12

I'm Back :)

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 05:24:51 -0700

Corrie... posted a photo:

Hello Flickrites :)
I'm back, after an extremely long hiatus (like 5 months?)
I had to stop my 365 project, the last photo that's up was the one I uploaded just before I went to go on a trip, and I had no opportunity to take 365 photos there. When I got back my mother had to go into hospital to have a double knee replacement.
I had been feeling unhappy about the 356 project for a while, just because I had far too much work, and not enough time, and was far too stressed to take any good photos. Most of the photos I took, I was extremely unhappy with, cause they were crappy filler shots.
Once I stopped, I felt so guilty and anxious about stopping, and basically didn't log onto flickr for months, because of the awful anxiety I felt whenever I got near the site, or thought about my 365 project.

I took this photo probably 2 months ago (and the black eye is from a well placed snowball, we were inundated with snow here for weeks, very unusual for us) and I've only managed to upload it now.

I'm not going to restart my 365 project, I just haven't got the time or energy, and I need to actually pass my exams if I want to get into University.

I'm going to delete some of the crappy filler shots that are on my stream. Although that might be against the ethos of showcasing a year, they don't have any merit, and they just remind me of stress and exhaustion. I don't want them here.
Although what I will do soon, is upload the backlog of good photos I've taken since I've stopped using the site (non-self-portrait ones) and get back to being proactive on flickr again, cause I really missed being on here.

Thanks for reading
- Corrie

[92/365] - Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 16:00:40 -0700

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Is this the real life
Is this just fantasy
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Any way the wind blows,doesn't really matter to me,
To me
Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen

That is a song of truely epic proportions, to the point that I could sing 'Mamaa, just killed a man' in the corridor, and there'd be at least one person who would continue the song.

I am packed up to head off on a school trip to Dorset for Geography. We're headed there to look at the coasts and geology. Physical Geography isn't my favourite part of Geography, but I just love the whole subject so much, it doesn't really matter. Either way, I'm extremely excited to go, even though it's going to be a 12 hour bus ride tomorrow, and it looks like I'm going to be having maybe 3 hours of sleep :-/
But I'm still excited, and its going to be amazing :)

October 17

[88/365] - Long Days Ahead

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 15:56:26 -0700

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Work, work, work.
It's getting very hard to keep up with the photos. It's not the time, it's more like I just don't have the energy by the end of the day to take a decent photo. Which is why they all seem to be getting more similar to each other, which I apologise for.

October 13

[86/365] - Texture

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 14:10:34 -0700

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The dress I wore for our ball... I love it pieces :)

October 11

Contortions

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 15:36:06 -0700

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A Contortionist/Sword Swallower/World Recorder Holder performing in Amsterdam.

Curled up like Tumbleweed

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 15:37:17 -0700

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A Contortionist/Sword Swallower/World Recorder Holder performing in Amsterdam.

[81/365] - Contact

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 14:39:29 -0700

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On the phone with my brother who's just left to go to University. Two weeks in, he's already got fresher's flu, and it missing home, poor boy :)

October 6

[80/365] - You hear my neurosises, you smell the fear.

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 15:38:40 -0700

Corrie... posted a photo:

Breathe... us in
Slowly...
Slowly...

Persuasion
Coercion
Selection
Assimilation

I'm afraid it could happen.
And then I'd be nobody

October 5

For we know we shall find, our own peace of mind

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 15:38:05 -0700

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Day 80 Alternative.

Warning - Talking with the older students about 'interesting' topics, may leave you mentally scarred for life.
It was fun though :)

[67/365] - Hide behind the things that speak for me, sing for me, and let me remain silent

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 14:42:52 -0700

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Radiohead for the win....

September 22

[66/365] - Ain't that just the way that life goes down?

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 13:40:28 -0700

Corrie... posted a photo:

if honesty doesn't work, what about manipulation?
or perhaps not
neither are very effective.
Things don't always go the way it says on the tin
and it's hard trying to piece the rest together

I wish you could show me the way, but I know I have to do this on my own

September 21

[65/365] - Into the depths

nobody@flickr.com (Corrie...) — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 13:39:34 -0700

Corrie... posted a photo:

I had to head down to the beach to take photos for an art project. There's no such thing as a quiet (reachable) beach in the Netherlands, so I had to take my photos with people walking past and staring. I utterly hated every minute, but it's necessary for the school work.
I've changed subjects to Art now, it was that or Theatre studies, and an awfully hard choice. But I've found my niche, so I'm ok :)

September 20