Uploads from Jeniee

Existence

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 14:31:02 -0800

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Genesis spreads as old days fading…
Exuberant life charm triggers again
Apart from all the malice once
Tormented the being…
Silky time flows nonchalantly;
Days possess every detail;
Night chants the moony carols.
Susceptible mind unites the poles.
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I am fine now. Just taking advantage of emotions for a release.

I lost my wireless remote and finally found it yesterday, in all places... the bottom of my purse. I don't even know it was there because I never take it in there. I can finish catching up now. I'm a bit late on this, but thanks so much to Jade & Jack for their testimonials! Also for both of their's and Cindy's dedication photo! You're all such amazing friends and such an inspiration!

Have a great day everyone!

The Rain Leaves a Scar

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 07:54:39 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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Those petals that burned out for but a moment.
By an ice-cold flame, withered in the night.
Oh my precious, where am I?
I can't sneak out to hide in the sediment.
But I'm feeling you in that flickering light.
When I awoke in the morning, I had forgotten things that had stopped.
Aflood in a warm rain that gentle noise went away.
Why am I the only that cannot be washed away?
You're fading from my sight, my voice keeps choking up.
I can't yell anything.
♥
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I really don't like this one, but I am posting because I need to start catching up, for real now. I hope everyone has been enjoying their weekend. I've been doing a bit better. Yesterday, my husband and I had gone out driving and stopped at a field nearby and actually witnessed someone abandon their dog there. They dumped food out on the grass and the poor dog was running after their van looking like "where are you going?!". She was so terrified it was awful. With a bit of patience we rescued her. She's the sweetest dog. And I am so happy that my Grandmother decided to keep her! She just lost hers last week and wasn't looking to get another this quick, but couldn't let this little sweetie go. We're such suckers for animals. ;)

Accept These Tears

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 08:37:33 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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These tears are the tears of broken dreams, they shatter beyond repair. So I will cry these tears tonight, knowing that you are gone. Knowing it was my fault... These tears crumble and roll down my cheeks. Giant boulders of sorrow, they tear me completely to shreds. This becomes my final punishment... The pain and the weight, guilt buried itself inside my sorrow. It bursts out as these tears and I accept them. These are the tears of consequence...
♥

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Bottom of the Barrel

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Wed, 24 Feb 2010 08:38:28 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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It's been awhile, a whole week. I don't know what's been going on but this past week has just been awful and full of bad things for me and some close to me. I want to apologize for making some of you worry, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your thoughtful messages asking about how I am doing and where I have been. Thank you so much. Right after my last upload one of our family dogs had to be put to sleep and I know for some that isn't very much, but my family and I especially, it is just devastating. She battled cancer for 10 years, for a dog... that is just beyond incredible. This makes it 3, 3 years in a row (one each year, around the same time of year), a total of 4.

On top of that, there has been some betrayal and hurt from a member of our family. An in-law has decided that affairs are acceptable and wants to up and leave their family behind with no question or regard to how they're affected by this change. I can't even begin to go on the other things that have happened in this week but it has put me into a place that I never thought I would be in and I have never felt so low as I am right now. I don't want to get out of bed in the morning and I've just wanted to isolate myself from the outside.

I know that it's not the answer and won't help me get over these obstacles. So here I am, trying to get back on track and I know I have some wonderful people to support me. I won't give up on this 365, no matter what. So I have some making up to do, thankfully not the entire week I was away. Thank you so much for all your concern and thoughtfulness. ♥

I know this is a dark lit and toned photo, but that was intended. I think it best represents the way I've been feeling and captures the mood I've been in these few days.

Cradle

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 11:29:08 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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Without breathing, closing our eyes.
Let's just entrust ourselves to the flow.
The gravity of the pale moon causes us to waver and sink.
Softly, like the crashing waves that was like a cradle.

I float in cosmos, for the place to return.
Living or dying, there is no meaning.
There is no past, no future, no nothing.
There's no one around, and I'm not even alone.
♥
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I know I am doing a lot of self portraits lately.
Please bear with me, I am experimenting, playing, whatever you want to call it. :)

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Shinshoku

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 13:43:55 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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Suddenly something I’m not, you’re something that you bought.
Was it something I said, my friend, you're feeding on this girl that's no good.
Are you breathing all over it, you better come up for air.
Are you waking up slowly, you’re nothing but lonely now.
Are you waking up holding onto her, holding your breath?
Are you looking for something and finally you think you’re alright?
She's promised you her heart, all the simple things in life.
And then she eats you up alive. Left degraded, your soul has diminished.
♥

Weeping Willow

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 17:47:25 -0800

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I started out as a little thing, a bit of dirt, a drop of rain. It has been a summer of horror. All across Earth’s natural world. Even in my very own backyard, I now watch new horrors unfurl.

We reached out our branches to the sky and planted our roots deep. We weathered the storms and recovered from bended brows, only to discover we were stronger from the strif. We were just thankful to be able to drink from the river of life. A weeping willow that no longer sheds it's tears, no more sorrow.
♥

For That Special Someone, A Kiss From Me to You

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 18:53:26 -0800

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You are my inspiration, having you in my life revived my devotion to live.
You are forever my special someone.
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I know this is awful, but whatever... Happy Valentine's Day again everyone!

Waiting For You

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 18:53:25 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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The music of your affection surrounds the air I breathe.
The wonder of your passion, my soul will never leave.
Within my heart it glides as we dance the dance of love.
These moments with you I could never have too many of.

Your kiss to me tonight, soft as an angels wing.
Came out through my lips in this verse I sing.
And the beauty of your words the distance cannot mar.

Our bond it only strengthens and as the nights go by.
I feel your arms around me as I gaze up to the sky.
The smile upon my lips it will surely never die.
As I'm waiting here for you until you're by my side.
♥

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Happy Valentine's Day Everyone! ♥
Now I need to quickly come up with something for today's photo!

Hurry Up Mommy!

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 13:59:34 -0800

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This is yesterday's upload, lazy I know. For the most part of the day, there was a power outage in my area. Out of nowhere it started storming. Okay, I should've prepared for it, I DID see it mentioned on the news earlier but forgot. So I spent most of the night in a pitch black asian grocery store. I was picking up a few things when all the lights went out. Oh what an adventure that was! lol I finally got home after being soaking wet, I'm greeted by these two, only to wonder where dinner is! Oh I love them.

I'll post today's photo later on. :)

The Streets We Live

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 20:00:20 -0800

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These streets have me lost. They have no sings, no direction.
The sky glows an eery red. I pick my pace up to a jog.
Searching for any life. These streets have me lost.
I'm alone, no one to care. No one to love, no one to die with.
These streets that glow red, these streets that accept no one.
These streets are a reality, our future, the streets we live.
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I know it's nothing special and it's been done, but I wanted to do it anyways so ha! ;)
I'm feeling a bit strange today, not sick, but off... I've had 3 little cat naps already.
Just exhausted I guess. This weekend needs to hurry!

Caress of Venus

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 14:21:35 -0800

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I was tagged by Jade!
I hadn't planned on another self portrait for my 365 today, but I'd might as well use it for that!

I'm tagging everyone who reads this. You have to go take a picture of yourself RIGHT NOW! Luckily I didn't see this when I was tagged last night, it would've been a horror. I do look funny here though. :/

Butterfly's Sleep

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 16:34:01 -0800

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Eyes delicate like a young girl's, gone transparent. Pale white skin that's never been defiled. A dress which dances like a butterfly. Even if your secret wishes are never brought to fruition, in the season when one wishes for eternity, the lord of the dark discreetly hides his shadow crooked gears.

Please rise from the dead on earth with my last kiss. This love will extend beyond time I'll make it bloom before you living endless nights and mornings in a land where no one's hand may reach. ♥

Apparently a lot of our pictures aren't showing up in our contact's recent uploads, which sucks. I hope it gets sorted soon!

Wonderment

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 19:22:30 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

(#39/365)

Looking deep into me as the sun shines from behind.
Visions of colors so brilliant never knowing what will come.
With one small turn, your eyes are captured.
So many colorful pieces come together to make such beauty.

Your imagination is drawn in, another turn.
In awe of the vision before you never knowing, something so simple.
Could bring such pleasure, made with simple things.
Resulting in mystery with every turn. ♥

Inspired by this photo.

Thanks so much to sonjjj for the testimonial!
You have so much talent and you are just the sweetest! ♥

Progression

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 16:35:30 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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pro⋅gres⋅sion
/prəˈgrɛʃən/ [pruh-gresh-uhn]

–noun
1. the act of progressing; forward or onward movement.
2. a passing successively from one member of a series to the next; succession; sequence.

Still catching up, so comments are off.

Apathetic

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 09:55:00 -0800

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ap⋅a⋅thet⋅ic
/ˌæpəˈθɛtɪk/ [ap-uh-thet-ik]

–adjective
1. having or showing little or no emotion: apathetic behavior.
2. not interested or concerned; indifferent or unresponsive
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I haven't posted my 365 for 3 days. It started because I was just never home or had time, then I felt sick yesterday. I don't know what's been going on lately. I'm just losing time and care for things. I've got to get out of this and get back on track. I'm sorry. Thanks to those who messaged me, no worries, I'm still alive, lol.

I'll post the remaining two images later on today so that I am caught up.
Comments off for now.

The Night Was Endless

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 09:54:20 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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Comments & notes off.

Endless Possibilities

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 09:43:21 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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We walk this road together, the skies are dark and the wind is strong. A burst of light beams down at the end of a tunnel. There's no more sorrow and no more pain. No more words without meaning, we knock down these hard walls. No more sleepless and lonely nights, walking towards a life filled with love and hugs so tight. For if we choose the wrong path, a light will guide you in the right direction. Destination unknown, our minds are open, looking for hope... there are endless possibilities.

A Beautiful Night

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 18:35:10 -0800

Jeniee posted a photo:

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The wind whipped her hair, molding it to her slender cheekbones, like a second skin.
She tilted her face, catching the first rain drops as they began to fall upon the thirsty earth. Closing her eyes and inhaling - slowly, letting her skin savor the moisture in separate, single increments. It was as if every cell of her body had come alive, dancing with the same electrical intensity as the lightning that surged through the sky. The thunder, an angry grumble of nature rumbled over head. In those few moments, she felt joyously alive... And she knew no fear, it was a beautiful night. ♥

Take Me Away

nobody@flickr.com (Jeniee) — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 09:30:00 -0800

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I need a vacation, someone take me away to the perfect get-a-way!
I am sorry that I've been a horrible contact, I don't even have time for myself lately.
In the midst of my hectic schedule, for some reason I decided to rearrange things in my house, oh the chaos.

Comments off.
Have a great day everyone!